It's been a while since I've written here. I've had so much going on that I actually completely forgot about my blog. So far, Roberto's been gone a little over a month. It's been really hard, but Skype and Facebook help so much. It's not like he's still here, but I still feel connected to him in a way I didn't think we would have. It's been wonderful. Our relationship seems to have gotten stronger in a way since he's been gone. I think we've both realized how much we love and need each other. This deployment has been tough, but it's been good for us. I have days when all I want to do is cry until I can't cry anymore, but I never seem to stop having tears. I've cried myself to sleep a few times. I miss him so much more than I ever thought I would. I miss his touch, his smile, his voice, his smell... one of the things I miss most is his smell. Right after he left, I'd wear his shirts, but now they all smell like me instead of him. :( I miss his snoring, his mood swings, his horrible music choices, I miss everything about him. I decided that this deployment was a perfect time to get my priorities straight. God is the most important thing in my life, and He should have always been, but as many people do I put my family before Him. Not anymore. He's my number one! I've devoted myself to Him in a way that I never thought was possible. It's amazing the things that happen when you make God your main, your first, your only. My life has fallen into place. The pieces have fallen together. Reading the Bible has been such an inspiration. Before it felt like a chore or a hassle, now I actually get excited about reading because I know I'm going to get something spectacular out of it. He talks to me like you talk to a friend. My relationship with God is so passionate and loving that it goes beyond normal relationships. It's a love like no other. My God loves me, and I still have no idea why. I don't deserve it, but He does and so passionately. :)
I'm now down 55lbs!!!! I'm now in the 100's. It's so odd seeing my body changing so drastically. I see it more when my clothes are off. I'm sure hubby will like that part lol. I wore heels for the first time in years yesterday. I felt ridiculous, but my mom and sister assured me that I looked great. I'm not sure how accurate they were though! I feel wonderful though. By the time Roberto comes home, I should be down to the size I was in high school. He's never seen me that size.. which is REALLY exciting! Actually in just a few more pounds he'll never have seen me this size.. about 10 pounds. And I'll be so much smaller the next time he sees me. It's so exciting! He's so excited to see me, too. But it'll be MONTHS before he can see me. Stupid deployment! But boy, when he gets home is he gonna be in for a happy surprise! ;)
This was about 2 weeks ago!
This was today!!!
